When we got to the hospital everything was very efficient. A little old lady behind the desk gave us a cute little crocheted hat for our baby girl, and told us where to go. We were told where to register which only took a few minutes and then they took me back to pre-op where they got me changed and ready. They had these awesome head peices that were totally voice operated, hands free, phone systems. They could call whoever they wanted just by saying "call so and so". I remember being very impressed by the efficiency of everyone. My nurse was very sassy and snotty to everyone else but was very kind to me.
We got done so early the Dr called an hour early (10 am) to see if I wanted to go in early. Of course I did, and she came in around 10:30 and took me to the operating room to get my spinal. That was what I was most nervous about, but it honestly barely hurt at all. I got an epidural with Jax but was nervous about what it would feel like without contractions to distract me from the spinal pain. I was worried for nothing, my anesthesiologist was amazing and so sweet. I remember feeling tingly and being afraid my spinal wasn't working and he explained that was normal and expected. I also remember having trouble breathing, which they also said was normal, but still scary! I also was so glad when my Dr. came over and put her hands on my knees while I was waiting for the spinal. I was SO nervous and David had to wait outside and I was all alone sitting on my table. She came over and just talked to me and told me how excited she was to meet my baby and really calmed me down.
All in all everything was over so quickly! I didn't even know they had started and until the baby was almost out. I was very freaked out that David was watching but he said he couldn't really see too much. This was good because last time he walked in half way through the Csection and said I was covered in blood (I lost aLOT of blood with Jax). The Dr said I had healed great from my last Csection and she could barely see the scars.
Then I heard my little girls first cry. I am so glad I had this memory because I don't with Jaxon. I sent David over to tell me the details. I asked if there was still only 1 (irrational fear I had with this one) and that she was still in fact a girl. They told me she had a little birth mark on her face and a TON of hair. When she was clean they brought her over for me to see her little adorable face for the first time. I remember seeing her beautiful eyes and how bright and open they were. I loved that she would hold my hand because Jaxon never would. She held on SO tight and kept my finger until we had to move to recovery. She had the same little chin quiver as Jaxon and the same pouty bottom lip. She had such a sweet cry. I loved her instantly and never wanted to let her go.
We took her into recovery where I got to do kangaroo care which I was VERY excited about since I didn't get to with Jaxon. I still love doing skin to skin with her and hearing her sweet little cry. She still has those big beautiful eyes that I love to look at. She was such a snuggler and still is but does need her own alone time in the swing which is nice.
Jaxon is ENAMORED with her. Anytime she opens her eyes he shreiks with delight and says "It's looking at Jaxon!". He loves to her hold her and kiss her and especially rub her hair. He still calls her "it" which I think is cute. He will come in and say "Where is it?" and "I wanna hold it". He is so attentive and makes sure to tell us whenever she is crying. I absolutely love our little family and can't imagine what it would be like with out Finley.
It did take us a while to name her. We originally had 3 or 4 names picked out but when we saw her, she did not look like a single one. We had chosen strong names to go with Jaxons name but she really looked like she needed more of a sweet name. David went and stayed the first night with Jaxon and came back in the morning and asked what I thought of the name Finley. I loved it and after going through all other possible options we thought it fit her best. We got Kaite from my middle name, which is Kathleen. I have never loved the name so we shortened it and added an i in the middle for flair. Not everyone loved it, but we did and that is all that mattered. We have since gotten many compliments on her name.
We adore our little girl so much and while life has been an adjustment, we are excited to see what the future has in store for us and our family. I am enjoying seeing each member of our family grow with the experience of bringing in a new member of our family. I can't imagine what we would do without her little smile in our lives every day. LOVE her little heart!
