Things to remember

So I am absolutely horrible at not only blogging but journaling too. I know I want to remember all the little things that Jaxon is doing though so I thought I would jot some down. Here are some thing that I want to remember about my AMAZING little guy.

-He sleeps through the night and has since he was 5 weeks old exactly. (8-10 hours at least)

-He is SO smiley in the morning. He giggles and laughs and is so chipper.

-He just discovered his swing. He falls asleep almost the second he sits in it.

-He LOVES the light. Windows, lamps, phones, Ipods... anything will do

-He enjoys being out side. If he is fussy, he will usually calm down if he gets fresh air

-He is so expressive when he sleeps. He makes happy, sad, angry faces and scowls

-He makes tons of "David faces"

-He gets VERY upset if he has to wait for a bottle

-His whole body turns red when he dirties his diaper (gross I know but it is so cute to a mom!)

-He also straightens his body and grunts for a good 5 minutes (no he is not constipated it is a smooth soft poo he just is dramatic)

-He is 14 lbs

-He gets blessed tomorrow

-His hair looks red in the sunlight or camera lights

-He sleeps in his carseat and loves to ride in the car. Even if he doesn't fall asleep he just sits there happily talking to us

-He talks when he eats, sleeps, or is awake. The kid is always coo-ing and letting us know he's there.

-He recognizes David and I and will follow us around the room if he hears us or sees us.

Those are just a few amazing things we've learned about him the last few months. I know a lot is typical but it is special to us. He is such a great baby!!!!

Big Day Out!

Today Jax and I got out and about. We went to lunch with my best friend and FAVORITE person Kristin Kappes for her Birthday! We went to root-a-bakers in Morehead since I had a dr.'s apt today and was going to be there anyways. After that Kristin took Jaxon home with her so I could go to the Dr and not worry about Jax getting his nap. I then did a few more errands and got to go visit my old workplace and see most of my coworkers and friends!

It was so nice to go back and see familiar faces. My coworkers really were more than just people I worked with, we were all really close and really like family. They were so excited to meet my little guy. Speaking of which, I though I'd upload some pictures too. Nothing new if your my friend of facebook but if not, here he is!!

Sleeping

Smiling at his mama (notice the dimples)

Jax and Daddy's favorite past time. Catching some zzzzzzzzzz's

My two full time jobs

So for those of you who have wondered where I have been the last month I have recently gotten TWO (yes count them, two) new jobs.

Job #1 - Jaxon Applegate which is pretty self explanatory.

Job #2 - Breast feeding (unsuccessfully).

All I do these days is feed, pump, change a diaper, feed, feed, pump, feed, diaper. When I am not doing that I am eating oatmeal, taking herbal supplements, drinking 120 oz of water, drinking an additional 3 cups of herbal tea (24 more oz) and trying to stay relaxed and get sleep (HA!).

This is all supposed to make my breast milk production increase. Well guess what, It doesn't! My last resort was to see about prescriptions my doctor would give me but I called today and he doesn't prescribe medicine for low production.

I am anemic and have researched extensively the affects on breast milk production and all sources say the same that low iron is a very common cause of low production. I've even found articles of mom's who have gotten their milk supply up and have tried it ALL.

Yes I have tried to JUST breast feed him and not supplement but all that does is end the day with both of us crying and me extremely sore.

I pump throughout the day to measure how much I am getting (yes I realize you do not get as much from a pump but I can see the fluctuation this way) and I can pump 8-12 times a day (not including night feedings or when I feed him during the day) and only get 4 oz tops.

I never feel my milk drop or any need to feed because I have such low supply of milk. I was panicked the first week because I thought my milk hadn't come in but I was making such a low amount I just assumed it was just colostrum. WRONG. I had milk but just such a small amount I didn't notice the difference.

At this point, both of us are exhausted and I am not sure what to do. Like I said the last resort was a prescription so I am going to try to call around and see if any other doctors around here will know anything about the prescriptions I have mentioned and if not, I don't know what else I can do.

I have literally tried everything for almost 6 weeks and still nothing has changed. Yes I nurse ALL the time, YES I have tried not supplementing him, YES I stay hydrated, YES I try my best to stay relaxed, YES he is latched on correctly (I have had multiple people including nurses and experienced mothers check). I would appreciated it if anyone has advice besides the above list I would appreciate it. Other than that, I'm going to hang on for a couple weeks and then just stop. I have no life!!! lol.

I promise I am enjoying my amazing son and all that he has brought to my life, I am just tired of my own boobs! He is such an amazing blessing and a great baby and I couldn't have done this if he was not so amazing. LOVE HIM just not breastfeeding although I have been determined to get past this, I just don't know if I can at this point.

Sorry for the explosion, just thought you might want to know I haven't dropped off the face of the earth!!